I have gotten so many strong spiritual promptings lately about where my life is supposed to go, but I don't want my life to go that way.
And to be honest, it's completely heartbreaking.
I always thought that I had this rock solid faith.
I always thought that nothing could deter how I viewed Jesus Christ, my Savior, and Redeemer.
But I was wrong.
I have such a strong testimony of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, but sometimes Satan gets the best of me.
My natural man craves to have what I want, although my spirit tells me something completely different.
How is that even possible?!
How is it possible for me to feel two completely different feelings at the same time?!
Obviously, it's totally possible.
When I started to feel this way, I started to look far into the future and I thought to myself "What will pay off in the end?"
I also began to realize that I can't sacrifice something that I want NOW for something that will be so much more rewarding later.
I found that as I was having this thought process that I had taken on an eternal perspective.
In young women's, the eternal perspective always seemed so distance and abstract. Yeah, you learned about it in church and it was always something that was discussed, but I didn't actually think I could ever claim it.
Boy, was I wrong!
Now more than ever, I have started claiming an eternal perspective.
From petty things like "If I eat those waffle fries right now, will I feel good about it tomorrow?"
"If I major in Public Relations, how is that going to affect my future family?"
Slowly but surely, I have begun to realize that having faith in whatever Heavenly Father has in store for me is so much more important than anything my natural man could ever want.