That word has come out of my mouth more times than I can count in the last month. 
New job, new roommates, new apartment, new city, new car...you name it, I've "newed" it. 

However, what's been the most new....is me. 

Since about last August, I've struggled with a lot of personal problems. A lot of it is my own fault, but while for the last 8 or so months, I've pitied and babied myself and ate way too much Chick-Fil-A, I've realized something incredible: God has been blessing me. 

Not in the way that screamed "Hey Elisabeth, look at what I'm doing. I'm blessing you. See?"

More in a "Elisabeth, you're incredible. Let me see what I can do for you."
As I've lived in Salt Lake, I have felt God guiding me. Literally guiding me...telling me where to live, what job to apply for, and the place I should be. 

I have never felt so right about anything in my entire life. 

In church on Sunday, a lady from the stake gave a talk in our ward and she said this: "If you find yourself becoming distracted during the sacrament, I want you to count your blessings. Because I promise you, you have more blessings in your life than you do trials."

I definitely teared up because she's absolutely right. I've been so immensely blessed, my heart often feels like it will spill over. My parents are right up there on that list. Heavenly Father knew I needed my parents. He knew I would need the kind of people they are in my life. I absolutely would not have graduated from college without them and I wouldn't have the drive and ambition that I do without their constant example in my life. I love them more than they will ever know. 

I have the most sensational friends. When I moved to SLC, I was worried I would be so lonely (I'm naturally a very outgoing person, I need people). However, I couldn't have been more wrong. I have been busy every night and every weekend since I moved. I have reconnected with old friends and continued friendships I thought I would lose. What a huge blessing that is for me. 

My life may not be perfect and the boy that I've loved over the last little while might not like me back, but you know what? I feel immense peace. A peace that I've never, ever felt before. 

It's like God is giving me a hug and telling me, "Elisabeth, you're incredible."

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