I don't take risks. I don't feel like it's necessary.
I'm very content in my sweet cocoon of a comfort zone, thank you very much.
I've often wondered why that is. Why do I have this wall of incapability that makes me fear risk?
What am I really afraid of?
I think I'm afraid of what people will think.
I'm afraid of how I will affect people by my "20 seconds of insane courage".
I was talking to my roommate the other day about this guy she has started dating recently. I asked how she was able to start dating him because she was the one that made all the moves, as in, she went to his apartment all the time, she talked to him, she basically led their relationship to where they are now.
When I was asking her how this all came about she replied, "I was very brave. I wasn't myself."
Now, she wasn't saying she wasn't being herself when she was being brave, she just meant that she broke out of her comfort zone.
She was brave.
She felt like it was necessary to take a risk.
So, let's think here for a sec...let's say I take a risk and I fall flat on my face?
Someone ends up hating my guts or I don't get the reaction that I want or I put all of my effort and bravery into a cause and it doesn't work out?
My soul becomes bruised and scarred and I just put up more walls.
Is this productive?
Does bravery and taking risks create opportunities?
Everyone tells me so, but it has yet to happen to me.
I guess this is just a little spiel...but what do you guys think?