In her book, she explains that while her and her husband were dating she told him that she didn't want to continue going to school if they got married and all she wanted to do was be a mom.
As I was reading that, I realized that that was not how I felt about motherhood.
It's TOTALLY fine to feel that way though! I know a lot of women who feel that way and that's perfectly okay. I'm not harping on Stephanie for feeling this way.
I guess I'm harping on how I feel about it.
I don't want to have kids right away. Being a mom scares the crap out of me. I want to get an education. In fact, I really want to get my education. The examples in my life only add to that conviction. My dad has his PhD and teaches psychology at BYU-I. My mom is finishing up her Master's degree and currently teaches kindergarten. My grandpa was a principal for 20+ years and many of my aunts and uncles went into education as well. Education has always been a HUGE part of my life and while I'm not perfect at it, I do value and treasure it. Being a mom isn't something I want right away.
Am I normal for thinking this way?
I was so floored about how I reacted to Stephanie's experience that I thought there must be something wrong with me.
Aren't all girls supposed to have that deep and embedded trait of motherhood engraved in their soul?
Cause I definitely don't.
Now, don't get me wrong, I totally want to have kids. I know being a mom is something that I want...but eventually. Not right away and I definitely have to think about it first because of what a giant responsibility it is.
I know this is kind of silly to talk about on my blog because I'm not even married, but it's something that has been on my mind for a couple days.
What do you guys think?